When i am with my friends i get to fool myself that everything is ok and all is well, but then when i get home i start to think. Its never a good idea for me to think. I think of how lonely i am and just wish there was someone by my side to laugh with, talk with, cry with. I want someone who i can share everything with who will love me as i will love them. I just dont see a point anymore. I have no fuel for my fire.