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ryguy93
I can't stand what hanging out with my friends has come to. They smoke weed all of the time now. The idea of them smoking weed doesn't bother me, I don't have a problem with people choosing to do so. It just sucks that I am literally the only person who doesn't smoke and they do it so often.

Tonight i was told we were going to be having one of our family dinners. I was excited because I was having a shitty day and those can always put a smile on my face. That got changed to tea and brownies which is just as good. When I arrived to hangout it became drive you friends to pickup weed and go to a parking lot while you friends all smoke in another car then go to a pizza place you have no desire to be at. This made me so pissed off. I have been doing this routine for a few weeks now and I realized I would rather be home. A text saying this was gonna happen would have been nice cause I would have just stayed home and used my time productively. I just don't get how everyone can complain that every night is the same old shit, then things like this happens. I just hate what my social life is right now.

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ryguy93
i cant stop thinking of her :/

sad story bro
ryguy93
I keep telling myself that I am excited that summer is finally over, but i dont know why. I know im still gonna work like 60 hours a week. Im still gonna beat myself up over the same girl which has been eating away at me for far to long now. I once again am not going to school so I feel like a pretty fucking useles waste of space already. I want to do more fun things with my friends. I want to extend my education past a half assed high school diploma. I want to like a girl that actually likes me back for once. Dissatisfied is the least I can say about my life right now. I want so much but i get so little. All i see on facebook is everyone living life and going out and doing exciting things, finding girls, and going back to school for their sophamore year. I have one semester under my belt and i didnt pass one class. Fuck everything!

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ryguy93
I really feel like i have hit rock bottom. Nothing is going my way and i feel like a fucking waste of space. I have been hung up on the same fucking girl for too long now. I dont even know my grades from this past semester because I know they are fucking terrible. Im living day by day right now and I hate everything about it. I bust my ass at work and come home to my father telling me im doing everything wrong in my life.. I used to ignore it but now i am second guessing. Maybe hes right, maybe i am worthless and a burden on the rest of society. My career goals seem to just grow farther and farther from my reach and I am just about done with everything. I cant take all this pressure anymore. It gives me terrible headaches and then i just take a shit ton of aspirin and a beer to wash it all away. I simply cant deal!!! 

sad
ryguy93
im sad
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ryguy93
I hate when people bail on plans you have made. It fucking sucks and its pretty depressing to think about. pretty fucking upset right now

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ryguy93
i hate being alone. Everything gets to me when im alone

The punch of fate...
ryguy93
So tonight i went to the bowling alley with my "friends" and one of them decided to punch me very hard in the arm region. I consider her to be my best friend and i just dont know what to think anymore. I thought we were so close and could share anything with each other ...THEN SHE HIT ME! Hating life right now thanks to this action of what was my best friend D:

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ryguy93
When i am with my friends i get to fool myself that everything is ok and all is well, but then when i get home i start to think. Its never a good idea for me to think. I think of how lonely i am and just wish there was someone by my side to laugh with, talk with, cry with. I want someone who i can share everything with who will love me as i will love them. I just dont see a point anymore. I have no fuel for my fire.

yup
ryguy93
  I have been so frustrated and emotionally drained lately. This girl is driving me crazy! I like her so much but i doubt anything will ever arise from the situation. I was deeply mistaken into believing she liked me, and now i cant stop thinking of her. I have felt this way since September and it's eating away at me. She is so beautiful and funny. I have never really felt like this before and i fucking hate it! I just wish things could work in my favor for once. I can never seem to find happiness. I'm sick and tired of being alone while i see people loving life all around me. I just wish she would come around.

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